Finally gettin' caught up on my music.  I've been downloading from radio station playlists like I used to because I actually miss new music.  Before that, I was downloading all kinds of music from all over the world.  Mostly hard to find j-pop and electronica.  Now that I've listened to all of that and it’s worn out its welcome to my ears, it's time to go back to my roots and get current.  So far, one of my faves is Pretty Ricky's "Your Body."  It might be played out to some people, but I'm just now hearing it on the reg and I love it.  So all you loser ass motherfuckers that still listen to commercial radio...get a fucking clue and stop fucking complaining.  All that changing stations bullshit…that’s your fucking problem.  It's your choice to either be smart and download your shit and listen to it when you want (or pay for Sirius or XM) or to listen to some idiot ass bitches talkin' over your favorite song, playing the same song twice in an hour, and playing 35 minutes of commercials in one hour.

For a good few months now, I've had some serious upper back pain.  Then it flowed down to my lower back.  All of this was stress induced.  A few entries ago I described how so many parts of my body were in so much pain because of all the fucking stress I was going through at the time.  I feel fine now.  I have no stress.  I have no pains anywhere (can pain be plural?).  I sleep better at night.  My body looks better (although I desperately need to shave it).  My face is clear (except for two pimples that showed up recently for some reason).  I haven't felt this good in a long time.  I feel like I'm fucking 20, man.  It's great.  Believe me, a stress free life is the way to go!  The best way to achieve this is to remove any negativity from your life; whether it be an object, thing, or a person or people.  Just get rid of all that shit, man, and you'll be a lot better off because of it.  Sure, there'll be stress-inducing situations that come up, but don't let that shit bother you.  Let it come in, absorb it, process it, learn from it, let it go, and move on.  That's how you do it.  If you gotta pull a Chappelle…hey that’s fine, too.  Do what you gotta do for yourself cuz in the end, you come first.  Now I just need to get some pussy...

I checked out the TNA primetime special.  Only one good match and it was the 6-man match with AJ.  Funniest moment was when the crowd started chanting during the Ultimate X match, "Please don't fall."  I know Nick had to be responsible for that one.  I liked the Jeff Hardy table dive onto Abyss.  I have to admit, that shit was sweet.  And AMW legdropping Rhino through the table.  Nice.  Two things I didn't like was the Rhino backstage interview and the finish to the AJ 6-man match.  ECW fans know the promos that Rhino used to cut.  Them shits were super intense.  Fast forward to now.  Shane Douglas holding a mic in front of him and he's talkin' all calm and shit.  I hated that shit!  Where's the real Rhino at?  I could ask the same thing about Raven, who still sucks by the way.

And why did AJ get the final pin in his match?  Why do they give that motherfucker everything he wants?  He's got the X title again.  He wins all his matches.  I think that's bullshit.  They need to stop protecting his ass and let him lose every now and then like he was a few month ago.  He'll never be a great wrestler if he doesn't have any worthy losses.  Flair and Hogan are perfect examples to prove that.  Sure he had the NWA title, but his last reign was one month and he didn't even defend the fucking thing in TNA or even on tv.  All that hype and for what? 

It's typical that TNA has a great match and they fuck up the finish.  I can't believe all the bullshit I read online from fans praising TNA, saying it's better than WWE.  If that's true, then WWE must really be in shambles cuz TNA still sucks in my book.  A good match here, a sick bump there ain't gonna make a card good.  I need consistency from top to bottom and TNA doesn't give that to me.  No American promotion is giving that to me right now, live or on tv.  Clearly this new wave of fans isn't from the '80's, Attitude, or NWO era cuz if they were, their standards would be a lot higher.  Or maybe it's just that my standards are too high.  I don't know.  That's not completely a bad thing though.  At least I don't think so.  Quality comes first, right?

I could tell during this match that they were using lucha rules because the ref never stopped anyone from double teaming and he wasn't enforcing tags.  That's not a completely bad thing, but this rule change was never explained beforehand.  You can't have a regular tag match with traditional American rules enforced and then turn around and have a match like this one without telling people any special stipulations before the match starts.  It's not consistent.  I'm critical as hell, ain't I?

Last season, Making the Band 3 was one of the best shows on tv along with Grounded for Life, George Lopez, and Rescue Me.  This season it's kind of lame and I was almost about to take it off of my regular tv schedule.  But last season was so goddamn good that I expected this season to be just as good.  Well, it's been a big disappointment so far.  Not nearly as much drama as I'd prefer.  But then again, I'm comparing it to last season which was so GODDAMN GOOD, man.  For those that didn't watch, you have no idea!  The shit was fucking excellent, man.  It was like I didn't want an episode to end and got pissed when it did.  And I was feenin' for the next episode like a scat mongrel with someone crotched over them.  Now that's entertainment.  This season, I can't say any shows stand out from the pack.  There's lots of good shows on, but none that are great.

Something just came to mind.  A few weeks ago in class, one of my teachers made a comment about tv that pissed me off but I kept my mouth shut about it.  She said that 90% of shows on tv are crap.  AND THE CLASS AGREED WITH HER UNANIMOUSLY!  I seriously had to bite my tongue and believe me, that shit was hard to do.  Especially when it comes to talkin' shit about tv: my true parent.  See, this is a literary, artsy, book reading class with the same types of people in the class.  I totally don't fit in but I have to take it cuz I need to, not cuz I want to.  They prefer print media.  I prefer moving picture media.  I'm the type that needs pictures with my words.  I guess cuz I'm an idiot like that.

Work has been interesting lately.  One customer called to ask what hotel she made a reservation for cuz she forgot.  How the fuck do you forget something like that?  Another one called in to make a reservation and I was confirming the spelling of her last name which was Pringle.  I said, "Like the chip?"  And she said in a sarcastic way, "Yeah, yeah, that's it.  Thank you for that."  I don't know if she took it lightly or if she was picked on her whole life and I brought up some bad memories.  Another lady called and wanted to know how many rooms were available for a hotel.  She wanted 6 rooms and when I checked, that many rooms weren't available.  She asked, "Well, do you know how many rooms are available?"  And I told her, "Less than 6."  She got a hoot out of that one.  I wasn't trying to be funny.  Then my supervisor told me that she got off the phone with a lady who she asked for her email address, but the lady gave her a physical address instead.

What really had me rolling on the fucking floor was when one of my coworkers was checking voice messages from the day before when we were closed and people were calling.  There was like 40 of them.  You know when people don't leave a message and all you hear is the phone hanging up?  How long does it take to hang up a phone?  Like, a second, right?  All you usually hear is a click and that's it, right?  Man, there were some messages where people hung up and it took like 7 seconds for the motherfucker to hang the fuck up.  It was like the phone was fighting with the caller.  Like it didn't want to hang up or some shit.  We were both laughing our asses off cuz I personally have never heard anything like that in my life.  I don't even know why the shit was funny.  Maybe the caller was jacking off when they called and they had a hard time holding the phone cuz their hand was all ky'ed up and they just kept dropping it and couldn't pick it back up so they just hung up with their finger.

This goddamn guy gets his dick and ass super glued, right?  And people think that's bad, right?  I thought about this shit.  It could've been a lot worse.  She could've curled his dick between his legs and super glued the tip inside of his cheeks.  If he would've walked a few steps, he would've been fucked.  Or the worst thing she could've done was do exactly what she did, but she could've fed him a plentiful meal first before the gluing and stuck a porn tape in later when he woke the fuck up or did a striptease for him or something to give him a woody.  Imagine that shit.  He'd be so full that he'd have to take a shit, but he couldn't without literally shitting inside of himself or ripping his ass in half Kobe style.  And if his dick got hard...man, he better hope that he wasn't circumcised!  Wow.  A hard-on where your skin didn't stretch with the increased blood flow.  Ouch.  Would that be worse than what happened to Bobbitt?  At least his dick was whole when it got cut.  Super glue guy would've ripped out of his dick skin like the Hulk out of pants.  Now that's some painful shit to think about.  She could've did it Clockwork Orange style and forced his eyes to be open during the showing of the flick or the stripping.  I'm a nasty ass motherfucker, ain't I?

I was remembering what my friend Angela said to me a couple months ago.  She was telling me about something, I don't remember what, and I replied to her, "I know how much you hate white people."  And she responded by telling me loudly, "You hate everybody," based on all the shit that I talk about people, especially here in my blog.  I just find it funny as hell all of a sudden.  I mention this because me and one of my coworkers had an interesting discussion a few days ago.  It was my supervisor actually.  And she told me that she was prejudiced toward white people.  I was kind of surprised cuz she never gave me that impression.  It just proves my theory that first impressions mean jack shit.

Her prejudice stems from a situation where she was pulled over twice and given 2 tickets in 7 minutes by what she calls "clear cops" in New Orleans North (that's Atlanta).  I was dying when she called them that.  I asked her was that reason enough for her to not like whites?  She said it's not that she doesn't like them, but she doesn't trust them.  I asked her if her car broke down and a white person was the only one available to help, would she accept the help?  She said no and that she would find a way without a white person's help.  Very interesting to say the least considering that we both work for "clear people."  She knows it's not right, but she's that way anyway.  She believes that all whites are untrustworthy.  I tried to convince her that not all white people are that way and that they've fucked me over in similar situations (thus my suspended license), but I don't hate them; although you can't tell by how I talk about them.

Contrary to popular belief, I don't see color.  I just see a person.  No doubt, every race has their quirks.  Thus the existence of stereotypes.  But I accept people for what they are and who they are.  I don't judge, especially based on color.  Not every person in the world is a good person.  People need to understand that.  The sins of one race don't have to apply to every one of them.  I just can't see things that way.  Humans are the worst creatures alive on this planet but I think when it boils down to it, we're (some of us) better than that.  And it's that some that can make all the difference in the world.

Then we got around to talking about religion.  She is questioning her belief in god cuz she says that she does so much good but she never gets anything in return.  According to her, the bible says that if you do good, good things will happen to you.  She says nothing good ever happens to her and she does nothing but good and now she's looking into scientology for some reason.  She said she's switched religions before.  I didn't say anything about that, but I think it's kinda stupid.  All religions are the same.  They all believe in the same thing but in different ways.  What a waste.  I told her that I used to think exactly the way she was thinking.  I stopped believing in god a long time ago, so questioning my religion wasn't an issue.  For me, it was all this karma bullshit.  I stopped believing in that concept based on my life experience.  She complained that it drove her crazy to see scumbags get by in life, riding on peoples coattails, or living large, and here she was struggling to get by.  I told her that she should just accept life for what it is and life would be so much better. 

Just accepting it is like lifting a huge weight off your shoulder.  I explained to her that you can't do things with the expectation of receiving something.  Like me, it's within her nature to help people.  I told her to just do what comes naturally and her reward would be that she helped someone.  If she saw it from that perspective, she could focus her energies toward more positive things rather than obsessing over things she can't control.  I saw a lot of myself in her that day.  I never hated any race, but I did decide to renounce god and did question why my life sucked.  I learned to just let things happen cuz the only thing I can control is myself.  When you look at life like that, only you are in control of your own destiny.  That's what I believe in.  I also believe that everything is already predetermined, so you'd better live your life to its fullest cuz when your time is up...that's it!  I know some of you may be thinking that by me saying that; then you aren't in control of your own destiny.  No, you can't change the future, the past, or anything else like that.  And if your path is already decided, then why bother, right?  Well, for those that want to accomplish something with the life they've been given; you better use it and not waste it no matter if you can't change the inevitable.  At least you gave it your all to make it worthwhile for yourself and others.

Remember Fisher Deberry's comments about how niggers run faster than crackers?  The recent New York City Marathon winners just proved him right.  So quit hatin' on the guy already!

So Tivo and Yahoo are teaming up.  Maybe.  I actually had a Tivo, but I didn't wanna pay monthly for the service.  There's a Tivo basic (which is free), but you can only get that bundled with a compatible dvr; mainly Humax and Toshiba.  If they offered the basic service with their own equipment then these idiots could cash in bigtime.  That's what they need to do to get to the next level.  ReplayTV is the same.  They wanna charge monthly for the program guide and shit.  Fuck that.  That's where Yahoo tv comes in.  I actually use Yahoo TV every week for my tv schedule.  Check out my link to it on the right.  It has its flaws, but it helps me plan for the week ahead for tv.  What they're thinking of doing is what ReplayTV is already doing: remote scheduling.  Meaning that you can program your dvr online from anywhere.  I think it's sweet.  Yahoo and Tivo can definitely benefit from this.  Yahoo could streamline their tv website and Tivo would have an extra capability to help drive sales.  Still, Tivo basic being available for their standard equipment would be the smartest move.  ReplayTV could do the same.  I'd actually buy a ReplayTV device cuz it's far superior to Tivo.  It's just not as widely available or in stores like Tivo.

On that note, months ago, the BBC was talking about making their tv programs available online for download.  Now the trend in the states is tv on demand.  CBS, NBC, and others will make some of their programs available for viewing like other on demand services like what HBO already has.  It's kinda like PPV except it's instant.  If it takes off, then obviously more broadcasters will jump on the bandwagon, the fee will come down, and more programs will be available.  Let's say you miss a show (and I've done that more than once) and that show won't be coming on again anytime soon.  What do you do?  You could use p2p and download it like that, but the quality would probably suck ass and there's always that fake file or virus risk.  But with the major networks making them available directly, we could ensure the quality of the program.  And it'd be commercial free!  I'm all for this trend, but you just know that these motherfuckers are gonna impose some kind of drm or scrambled signal on the shit cuz they have to know that people are gonna share these files.  The hurdles that the music and movie industry are facing will inevitably affect the tv industry.  Let's hope they learn from the mistakes of the m&m's and do right by the consumer.  We want this to happen the right way.  I know I do.  Of course, I won't pay...

I thought it was funny that Tom Cruise fired his sister for doing such a sucky ass job as his publicist.  They're such a close family, aren't they?  What a bunch of nepotists.  And then he had to say shit like she did a good job but it wasn't working out and shit like that.  Fuck that shit, man.  Just say what you say behind closed doors.  She fucking sucked, she did a shitty job, and had to go.  Tom Cruise has been put through the ringer in the last year.  And it's all her fucking fault for letting shit leak.  At the same time, his dumb ass should've never jumped on that couch.  That was all him.

I’m on the bus and I just looked at last week’s lucha.  It was AAA this week.  I finally got my dream match but it was a fucking nightmare instead.  Psicosis v. Octagon.  The match I thought I’d never get to see.  I could tell by the slow pace of the match that they were setting it up for something to happen at the end cuz neither one of them was giving their all.  As I expected, Histeria interfered and it turned into a brawl between him and Psicosis.  That shit was actually pretty damn good cuz they fought all the way up to the second level of the arena.  It reminded me of the old NWO days when the fans pelted the ring with litter.  This time, they just pelted the wrestlers directly.  Fucking people were picking up whatever they could find and threw it right at the wrestlers.  Security was either non-existent or the fans in Mexico can get away with a lot more shit than we can.

They also showed Cibernetico v. La Parka.  I already knew the result of the match, but it was still nice to see.  It was actually a damn good match but it proved my point that neither of them can wrestle worth a damn.  Other wrestlers make them look good and this was no different except what was going on outside of the ring (and outside of the building) was more interesting than the match itself.  It was still a good show overall.  Konnan was on the show too and his mic work in Mexico is far superior than the tired, played out crap we get here in the states.  TNA needs to get a clue.  Break up ShitLiveKru, turn Killings and Konnan heel, and fire BG James.  Nobody cares about him anyway.  He won’t be missed.

Here’s more news about Sony, drm, and rootkits.  This shit is gettin’ serious.

I just got home.  Passed some spics by on the way while I was walking after getting off the bus.  They were loud like all spics are.  One of them was talking about how big Mexicans heads are.  The other was talking about how he didn’t trust Mexicans.  Peep this though…both of these knuckleheads were fucking Mexicans.  Go figure.

I got some good news just now, too.  I checked my Netscape mail and found out that my affiliates that I have on the right of this page actually paid off for once.  I got a 9 buck payment cuz somebody signed up for one of the porn dvd services.  Whoever you are…THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I really appreciate it!!!!!!!!!!!!!